Welcome to the Stump! I’m Octoblu0! I'm an artist, streamer, and interest-based bean. I stream games and art on Twitch (until there’s a better platform, fate willing). I am a Jelly Slime~ and I live in a place simply known as the Enchanted Forest. It's huge, dark, and easy to get lost in. The flora glow like moonsilk and the fauna can grow to the size of giants…. I've always thought personal websites were cool but I never thought I'd find myself making one after all the nonsense on places like Twitter, Instagram, or even Twitch. I welcome you to The Stump website! Make yourself at home!

Hello hello, in light of the new year and new energies, I'd like to introduce myself.

Hi, I'm Octoblu0! I'm a streamer and artist who cosplays as a JellySlime on the internet because my real life never made sense to me and I got sick of people trying to silence me (even when I’m not saying anything!).

I've always tried to create content on the internet and it didn't go anywhere. Hell, it hardly ever went anywhere. I've always wanted to share my art and stuff, but it always felt like no matter what I provided for the world, it would go on deaf ears or fall short. I also had somewhat of a complex- I weird desire but fear of attention.

Growing up I'd been pushed into the spotlight against my will to make others look or feel good, but whenever I tried to do any of that for myself I got cold, lukewarm responses. When I got to act in plays or participate in choir, I would be praised by others but brushed off or ho-hummed or critiqued from those who said they cared about me. I’ve always wanted attention~ just……..not the type I’m accustomed to receiving. (TW below)

I started streaming on Twitch in Oct of 2023. Prior to that I was involved with some unsavory groups of people when I played FFXIV (Final Fantasy 14 [MMORPG). I had been trying to find myself for….most of my life (I am a baby millennial, if that helps with how long) because I’m was child of narcissistic abuse. I’d been associated with horrible people and I stood up for horrible people. I got involved with horrible people who did horrible things to me when I either didn’t want to go after their frenimies or when I didn’t give them the attention they thought they were entitled to.

While I understand how vague that sounds, I’m not keen on describing: racism, sexism, sexual assault, verbal abuse, child endangerment, sexual cohesion, fantasies of murder and/or rape and/or highly disturbing harems, highly narcissistic and sociopathic tendencies (aka highly manipulative, predatory, and/or violent behavior at minimum. Not diagnosing. Just lots of experience) sex pests, pedophiles, bestiality, nazism, etc...you get the point. Spare me by letting me spare you.

I moved on to streaming because I recognized the people I was hanging around was so toxic it was negatively impacting my mental health, very similarly to an abusive near two-year relationship I got out of, and the high-stress, highest-suicide-rate workplace I’d sold 6 of my years too. I was sick of being surrounded by darkness and I wanted to be more authentic with less punishment.

Unfortunately, I didn’t get a fresh start when I left FFXIV and started doing Twitch. I pissed off several big named Vtubers- 2 for unknown reasons, 1 because I caught feelings and confessed (see #ickqueen on my Bsky), 1 because I drew sexy fanart of her lewdtuber husband (one of the 2 for unknown reasons), and minimum 5 more because they are friends with the aforementioned 4.

I won’t deny I also made some fucking of mistakes. My mods- whomst I should have banned for lying about their ages but kept to help them with their issues and protect them from predators. I’ve sided with people I shouldn’t have sided with, driven away potential friends by acting first and observing later. I’ve unintentionally flirted with/ slid into the DM’s people in relationships. I’ve sided with horrible people because they were my ‘friends’ or my ex, or because they made game mods I liked. I’ve made questionable decisions based of unknown/unaddressed trauma. I talk shit (and still do, but ethically~). But I’d rather not hide behind those mistakes and let them rule over me. Especially in yet another community that is plagued with abuse and weird, unsavory behaviors. -_-

I can be a bitch too- especially a dumb one. That is why- after being...gray to blacklisted from the Vtuber community at large for all of that and for being an outspoken hothead who’s totally fine with pointing out issues ;3- I decided to do the next thing a stereotypical suburbanite does when life beats them with the whole ass lemon tree, I embraced my inner goth kid and got DEEPER into my spirituality...that’s to say, I’m a witch ♥.

Why? Because it was something that’s been in my life since I was a child and it was the only thing keeping me from crossing over early. It saved me from the shitty job, shitty ex, and shitty “friends” from FFXIV. It’s also saved me from making shitty decisions and continuing to cosign shitty behavior in the Vtuber space. It also inspired me to be stay in the space and be a stubborn bitch about improving it.

Even if it comes in the form of “hurting people’s feelings” by saying what needs to be said in the most hot-headed way possible. (I’m really sick of the faux French Court Decorum some of these folks pretend to have- since they rarely speak out about important issues. Especially the ones with the platform and powers to do so)

And that’s why I’m writing this. A personal website is the only place I can tell my story without pinging people on Discord or upsetting the algo gods on other social medias -_-. I’ve decided to embrace who I am instead of be ashamed of it like so many people seem to want me to be.

So I’ve decided to embrace every aspect of me, regardless of anyone’s opinion. I vent. I talk shit about people I don’t respect. I’m not afraid of judgment or rejection (anymore). I don’t need or want everyone’s approval- just my soul family. I see through most bullshit and it scares people. I wrote this massive paragraph in the news box, which is probably hard to read...XD

And if you’re fine with all of that, and you like me, and you want to help me on this quest to blow up on social media, please consider supporting me on Twitch. If my weirdly soothing voice doesn’t entice you to be a regular, maybe my healing journey will. Maybe I’ll inspire you. Maybe you’ll fucking hate me. Who knows!

Thank you for reading! ✿

• Monday - No Stream
• Tuesday - No Stream
• Wednesday - No Stream
• Thursday - [7pm EST] ✿ Art? Games? Unwanted Ranting? Occult? We'll see ✿
• Friday - No Stream
• Saturday - No Stream
• Sunday - No Stream